illustrate childrens’ book ~travel to Paris and sit with Mona Lisa and dream more~move~adopt~live in Italy for a month or 2 or 3 or more~learn how to speak a foreign language~go skydiving~help others dream big~
sell my own art work~ find my style of art making~love fiercely~be loved fiercely~have children~own a home on a lake~become an illustrator~see my artwork in a magazine~visit Hawaii~visit Australia, Greece, South America, Jamaica, Africa~ be sexier~ be funnier~win millions and give most of it away but live comfortably~ be ready to love again~ heal my broken heart~be a lover~ become happier~ live each day with excitement~ laugh more~ laugh everyday~ smile more~ find that energy that wakes me up each day~fix the education system~learn how to scuba dive~learn how to surf~meet Drew Barrymore and become great friends~ accept others shortcoming~ accept my own flaws~ make friends easier~learn how to ballroom dance~become an event planner~ truly believe in myself again~ become successful with R+F~Backpack the AT~ See the Grand Canyon~Run a marathon~
might be time to add more to my list!
I have been missing in action for months now! Gah! I am so sorry. I would like to say it is because I have been traveling the world….but alas, I have just been busy with school, work, and the other things I put on my already full plate.
My summer was different. I cannot say it was horrible or boring. Just different. In fact, looking back, I can see that I went to an internal place of reflection and thought process. I was tired of sharing with people how one disappointment after another kept landing on my path. I didn’t want to share that I was tired of always being let down or discouraged. Now, I look at it as a true test to how much healing I have done over the last year. Not to say that there were not moments of frustrated tears, but instead of throwing up the flag, I met each challenge head on.
It took me a long time to finally feel ready to trust and let another person have access to my heart again. I tried over the winter and into the spring. And met a challenge that placed me right back into a walled up fortress. Over the summer, I let the walls down again.
Part of letting the walls down had to do with the hearts I kept finding across my path this summer. A heart rock to me is a sign…..