I have been missing in action for months now! Gah! I am so sorry. I would like to say it is because I have been traveling the world….but alas, I have just been busy with school, work, and the other things I put on my already full plate.
My summer was different. I cannot say it was horrible or boring. Just different. In fact, looking back, I can see that I went to an internal place of reflection and thought process. I was tired of sharing with people how one disappointment after another kept landing on my path. I didn’t want to share that I was tired of always being let down or discouraged. Now, I look at it as a true test to how much healing I have done over the last year. Not to say that there were not moments of frustrated tears, but instead of throwing up the flag, I met each challenge head on.
It took me a long time to finally feel ready to trust and let another person have access to my heart again. I tried over the winter and into the spring. And met a challenge that placed me right back into a walled up fortress. Over the summer, I let the walls down again.
Part of letting the walls down had to do with the hearts I kept finding across my path this summer. A heart rock to me is a sign…..