Dreams do come true

I have been painting almost everyday again! Inspiration seems to strike when I least expect it!
A friend asked for a painting and gave me a few ideas of what he liked. I have to say, they were a bit out of my comfort zone. After a lot of sketches and brainstorming, I decided to let go of planning and let intuition take over. I think I was able to successfully fuse his likes and my painting style together.

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And the painting above has been a work in progress for a while now. I hated how it was coming together at first. It has transformed completely into another painting all together. Again, I have been approaching this with intuition and I am much happier with it. I finally feel like my dream of finding my own style is coming to fruition! So happy!
On another note, I think I have finally reached the end of my healing process after realizing one day that I was unhappy with my life. Of course everyday is a lesson for me but I think my outlook and approach is better now. I won’t be walked all over, I won’t put my dreams aside any more and I’m truly listening to my inner voice and trying to let that guide me. Did I mention, I can’t stop smiling lately?? So happy to finally feel that way again!

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Exciting new adventures…..

Wow, I know it has been a few months!  I have been so busy lately with lots of new things happening in my life!  I promise it has been worth the wait!  I have finally reached a place in my life where I am happy with my outlook, I have an idea of what the heck I want to do with my life, and I feel like I am solidly standing on both feet.

I had a great winter skiing with my River Runner group until first day of February vacation.  I unfortunately completely tore my ACL.  That put a big damper on my ski season and I haven’t been on snow since.  Surgery in April will take me off my feet for a while but I look at it as an opportunity to finally get some rest!

I decided to join my very good friend, Megan, as a business partner working with Rodan + Fields dermatologist created skin care products!  I absolutely love the product!  My skin feels and looks spectacular and I know anyone else that tries it will feel the same.  I am hoping to recruit a few people to work with me so if you are interested or know of anyone…….drop me a line.  This is a great opportunity for anyone who is looking for a way to supplement income or to find ways to create an opportunity where you can schedule your work around your life!  I am telling you….I was skeptical at first, but after researching and listening to business presentations and of course loving the product….I am a believer!  SERIOUSLY!

I also have been busy painting and really allowing my creativity to shift in new directions.  I am loving my newest painting, I was hoping to really work with layering but still include my love for patterns and bright colors.  This painting went a little darker then usual but it is a start!

It started out like this……….

And now looks like this……

New painting

Over the summer I was able to squeeze in a few paintings.  I really  need to increase the amount I do if I ever want to sell my work!  Actually, my apartment has become my own personal gallery.  I had my mama’s boyfriend photograph some of my work.   He is much more qualified then myself at that!  Now I just need to spend some money to get some prints made.  My fear is that no one will want any of my work!  Gah, that is my small fear!

Here is hoping I find more time to paint and I ignore my fear!  For now, enjoy my cute little painting!

Some new artwork

Together, mixed media

Well, as usual, time has lapsed between posts!  December flew by with lots going on.  On top of hosting Christmas parties and finishing up the holiday shopping, I also started River Runners at Sunday River again.  I missed my kiddos so much.  They really aren’t kiddos anymore though, a few of them might be taller then me pretty soon.  Pre-Teenagers…….oh jeez, lots of energy and lots of socializing.  Should be a great season, I just wish we had more snow! Please?!

For holiday gifts, I made my girlfriends each a piece of artwork and some cute ceramic miniature houses.  It was so much fun to settle into the creative process for a few weeks.  I also left all my materials scattered around the apartment.  I don’t have a studio space to work in.  I set up shop on the kitchen island and that means I have to pick up after myself after each session.  Very annoying when you aren’t really done with a project.  So, for the holiday madness, I decided to ignore the mess and the anxiety I feel around it for a couple weeks so that I could get some things done.  It also helped to have a deadline!

The above picture is just one of the 9 pieces I made.  I went with a theme about women and the courage to believe and live our lives fully.  I used various mixed media techniques and lots of various materials.  My favorites were my Zig writer pens, Copic pens, Golden acrylics, and various stamps.

 

No Matter Where I Go…

Acrylic and pens on canvas-“A Chip on my Shoulder”

Good morning to everyone!  Yesterday was a pretty emotional day for me.  I started off my with high hopes of a great start to my week and it was crushed.  I will not say too much because it has to do with work and I try not to share that part of my life on this blog.  All I will say is that I have realized that I can no longer keep putting as much energy into offering up so much help at school anymore.   I mean, I need to ask myself if offering to do so much is the best for my body and soul. I am not talking about my role as a teacher, I would do anything for my students.

I struggled through the rest of my day after the first half hour of my morning was spent trying to give myself a pep talk.  I felt defeated and frustrated and it was hard to snap out of it.  The minute my kiddos walked in to my room, I was able to ignore it.  That is until a close friend/teacher noticed my demeanor and asked what was wrong.  I wish I could hide my emotions better!   I was probably just being too sensitive to the whole issue.

My day continued to be crummy.  I went to the gym after our soccer game (my poor kiddos lost miserably, but worked really hard) and tried to work it out of my system.  I felt a little better by the time I got home.  A delicious meal of salmon, rice, and asparagus set me right to end my crummy day on the couch watching tv.

This morning I woke up feeling a little better.  Cranked Michael Franti’s newest album and sipped on some delicious coffee during my pretty ride to school.  The leaves are turning color and my drive was filled with rusty reds, crisp oranges, and bright yellows.   Today is going to be much better!

You Can Dare to Take That Unspoken Dream Seriously

I have been working on this piece for a few weeks now.  I used collage elements as the base and relied on Golden Fluid Acrylics to add in other elements.  The piece sat there staring at me.  I was happy with the flowers and tree but felt there was something else to add.  The other day I was struck with a huge burst of creativity juices and decided to photocopy a picture of me when I was 2 and added it to the piece.  I also added Pepper, my dog, to include something present in my life.   Pretty happy with it!

Yesterday was another great day full of ideas.  I kept going to my journal to write down something, I was afraid I would probably forget them.  The minute I got home from school, I pulled out all my paints, and papers, and brushes and set to work.   It was a successful afternoon of creating, but I was disappointed with the end result.  I just can’t seem to make something that I feel expresses me.  I worked, and over worked a couple paintings and they turned out dark and moody.  I was hoping for happy and colorful.  I decided that my mood was the cause and created the effect.

I keep hoping every day will be another day of creative ideas just waiting to be used.  There are some days when I’ve got nothing.  I really, really, really want to find something that carries me away for a few weeks rather then have all kinds of little creative ideas that lead to a quick ending.  Usually with me not liking it.  Just gotta keep going and give everything a try.

“You can dare to take that unspoken dream seriously”

In Progress Painting

So, I have had all these ideas zooming in and out of my head the last few days.  All these various painting techniques to try, subject matter to paint, what I want to paint and what people will like.  Then I remembered that what I “want” to paint is more important right now then what others want me to paint or what others will like.  And that is confusing, I’m sure!  Just know, I am confused!  So many ideas and I am trying to keep up with them before they get lost in my busy brain.

Long story short, this is my most recent dive into the uncomfortable way of painting.  I want to try and add more drawing elements into my painting.  I am very attracted to loose, sketch-like lines and I am trying to figure out how to add them in with out losing the whimsical and child-like feeling.  I don’t want my work to become to dark or dramatic right now.  I want to really focus on the positive and childish way of creating!

Please let me know what you think of this piece!

A New Direction

I had painted this large canvas a few weeks back with greens and blues.  I wanted to explore different techniques that would create various textures.  I smeared glue on the surface and then let it dry a little before I painted on top of it.  It created a really fun crackling surface that you can see in the blue sky.  I also used some saran wrap to create some fun texture in the tree and grass.  After that, the painting sat by my door awaiting a spark of creativity from me.  It stared at me, I stared at it and we played this game until I finally had the courage to try painting something new.  I wanted to add something whimsical and very child like.  So I dove into my sketchbooks and found a drawing I had done last year of two kids.  It was very cartoon-like but I enjoyed the simplicity of my drawing.  So I added them into my painting and changed a few things to make the couple look a bit older.  I also wanted to add some fun owls in love perching in the tree.  I am pretty happy with the outcome.  I might work on the house a little more.  It doesn’t feel finished yet.  I am proud of myself for going in a different direction with my painting and adding in my love for illustration.  The use of acrylic paint and markers was a fun exploration!  Tell me what you think?

I forgot how busy summer is

Mixed Media 6"x6" Let Your Dreams Take Flight

It is hard to believe that it is August and I haven’t posted to my blog at all!  I am so busy during the summer playing with my friends and basking in the carefree and very flexible schedule I have during the summer months.    I haven’t even thought about my blog because I have been out dancing with my ladies a couple nights a week or laying in the sun or enjoying sushi on Sunday nights.  I should feel bad about the neglect of my blog, but I have been having way too much fun.  I think it was a much needed break to re-energize my soul and soak up the sun!

There are only two more weeks left before I have to enter back into my school schedule.  It makes me sad, I wish I could find a way to still have a more relaxed work week.  It is so hard to be in school all day and let go of my “responsibilities” and still go out with the girls and be able to get up at 6 a.m.   Maybe I can compromise with myself……stay tuned.

I will have to get into my classroom soon and start figuring out what I will teach this year.  I am pretty sure that will be put off until the last moment, I just don’t want to be stuck in my classroom when I might be missing out on something fun in the sun!